---Dying FeeL---

there hav been 1 month and 2 weeks i did't bac to hometown. i was so excited to go bac, the 1st thg i will do i hug my daddy, yeah i did it. it did't last long, the feeling was not wat i expected, i expect tat daddy will be staying wif me and chat or hav nice dinner or a meal wif me, but not T.T the day i went bac is on saturday, i reached around 230pm and the dishes on the table hav no any special foods, i expect there might some foods tat i like to eat, but no. the next day, daddy trying to bring me to teluk intan to eat seafood but sadly my "asshole cousin" try to make it late at the estate so tat we cant manage to go there, so i got not chance to hav a great dinner wif my daddy, so i was thinking ok lo then can we eat breakfast 2gether 2moro, but sadly again daddy dated wif the "fat bitch" so i also cant hav breakfast wif daddy d. T.T very sad ar, all i want is juz ur love but i did't get anythg...not anythg la at least i drunk some soup. it let feel tat there is no different whether i'm going bac anot. u dunno my feeling, as u say i infleuced by the others so do u. -_-,

should i sell my motor for DSLR...